today is just
wrong.
NASDAQ is tanked, but is rising again. unfortunately the
stocks i watch aren't making a good recovery.
i haven't been
eating and i'm now at the point where the thought of eating anything makes me feel queasy.
at work we got this
slick new individual cup
coffee maker, and it'll be the death of me. i'm going to wind up
peeing out everything (well, not
Everything but you know what i mean). i'm surprised my eyes aren't brown yet.
i have to
clean my
apartment. i feel so
lazy. i don't want to do anything at all. i feel like
drawing and maybe i'll just wind up doing that instead. as my
boyfriend says, "shut up and draw". i've not been feeling too
inspired lately though.
i slept like crap last night. when i went to bed it was drizzling outside, and the sound of the rain was nice so i opened my
bedroom windows. of course, i was woken up at 2am by
thunder and rain pouring into my room and soaking my curtains and my
bed. it wasn't too smart of me to have left the window open in the
rain, but the sound of rain is so lovely, and it wasn't coming in my window when i fell
asleep.
work has just been dragging.
slow days annoy me. it's
drab and
dreary outside. and
cold. i hate cold. that's probably the primary factor affecting my
mood right now.
addendum: last night i cut my finger on an anti-theft magnetic metal strip thingy that was tucked in a book i'm reading (
69 by
Ryu Murakami). it
bled a lot. i didn't bother me too much until today when i was peeling
the perfect orange. now it's quite painful. i got through it, though. i had three
oranges.