Health: I am treating the sinus infection as per my physician and the Sanford Guide. Just saline washes with a Neilmed kit and the little packets and distilled water.

How will we tell when it's gone if I don't have normal sinus symptoms? It's still tender in the bone above the tooth. I am asking if we could track it on sinus xrays. Way less radiation than a CT scan, so I'd rather avoid more. Referral to ENT specialist pending. Stupid evil insurance has to approve first.

I am also checking in with various alternative folks. Carefully. I don't think energy work could hurt.

A very elaborate dream with a lot of people this morning:

I am at the lake and staying in a cabin. Not one of our cabins, or rather, this isa dream cabin in the sky. My mother is there and my sister but I don't see them. I go to the Little Cabin and my cousin T is there. Also his wife L and their children and my grandmother that I am named after. She is in her 90s in the dream and frail. I am so delighted to see her, I hug her. I air kiss my cousin K and my cousin H. There are some 12ish twins and other kids and adults that I don't know. I ask L if the man sitting by her is her brother. She looks offended that I am asking questions. "An old friend," she says. And nothing more and the man gets up and moves away.

Then the whole group goes by me with chairs and pieces of wood. Now there is a road in front of the cabin instead of a lake. They all set up an elaborate installation outside a house across the road from the cabin. This is clearly some sort of game or prank. "Come out, Mr. Thomas!" shouts my cousin T. They are all laughing and joking and singing some. I have not been invited or initiated into this. For a moment I want to be: then I don't. This is a family pattern, insider/outsider games. The insiders know what is happening and it's all a "joke". The outsiders either play along or get to be audience and perhaps if they are really good they will be accepted as insiders and included. Ick. I hate this.

I leave. I go back to the sky cabin. I am thinking. My grandmother was not playing the game. I will do the dishes while I think. She is really the only one that I want to spend time with. She is fine with me not playing the game and is fine with me rebelling.

Then I am on a sidewalk. A man took us there but he has left. I am with another woman and a second man. The first man did an elaborate sort of act and dance to get us to go with him. I think he was sent by my family as part of their games. I don't really care. The other man is part african american and is wearing pants, but is also covered from head to toe with silver glitter. He is very handsome. He and I are flirting just a little.

The woman says, "I will have to be careful coming back if I go fishing, with you two around." She implies that we will be all over each other the minute she is not there. The guy and I just grin at each other. We are both just flirting and being a little silly and also careful. We both are interested that the other person is being careful and we both may want to learn more....slowly.

"What does it feel like to wear glitter from head to toe?" I ask.

"I don't know," he replies, "This is my first time."

And I wake up.