Today wasn't going well, so I decided to go walk on the beach in the mist. It's one of my ways to clear my head, de-stress, and basically get my shit together. I'm struggling with an on-line lover, a man who I fell totally and confusingly in Love with on a computer game called Everquest. For several months now, he's been sending me every message he can that it's over, he only wants me for an casual friend, and that I'm wasting my time mooning over him. But did I hear him? NOOOOOOOOOOO. I've been opening up to him, sending gifts, sharing my soul...doing all those things that lovers do, but normally BOTH parties participate. So today, on the beach, with the surf in my ears and the mist in my hair, I tried to put him on my official list of ex-es. Did it work? I doubt it.