The list includes:
Places I would like to visit
with him

Dinners I will fix
for him,
handmade and served in an apron

Words I will say, breathlessly
others that I will never say

It is important,
I remind myself
to keep track of what I might say
but not as important as what I am willing to do.

In the long run
the words I do not say, and
the steps I do not take
define what I really feel