I might be back but i'm too lazy to edit my home node.
--July, 2004:
Man. I look back at this and it's like, wow. My childhood. My teenage years. Cool. You can see the angst pouring through. Still cool despite the emoness though.
I've long been of the opinion that we don't just up and quit things. I may have made a big quitting announcement and followed through on it a long time ago. Therefore, I like to make the announcement two to three years after i've actually quit, therefore it's established. The result is that I don't get the heartfelt goodbyes and the nini's that I might otherwise like. If you still remember who the hell I am feel free to drawp the email at shanoyu at teh uga dawt edumahcational. Keep in touch.
I miss the place. E2. Not nearly enough to come back and write stuff, mind you. I fear i've betrayed you all for the true pseudo intellectuals, the wikipedians. Sorry. =\
I mean, I think we all knew for a long time that it wasn't going to work out. I'm way too egomaniacal. There was the DMan thing, there was the Jet-Poop thing, there were a lot of things. There were a lot of massive arguments over shit that's basically not fit for print no matter who got their way. I think i've gone through the phase where e2 interests me.
I've done it all, the lame musings about how my life sucks because i'm depressed, or nobody loves me, or I flunked out of college, or I didn't get into yale, or i'm a transexual; whatever. I've made the lame post that has something to do with sex. I've made lists. I GTKYN'ed when it was still hip to do so. I've written a node like Chess that got into a banner. I've done some real bang up work, and i've done a whole, whole lot of really, really, really shitty work.
I have some advice. I hope I can write it the way stand/alone/bitch would. Man, I miss her. If you ever get a chance, read her. I think the most beautiful stand alone sentences i've ever read in my entire freaking life have been by her, and her supposed alter ego Jane. I've posted a note ghost authored by Jane on someones door to express my eternal undying love for someone. I know it's stealing, but sometimes someone else can say it better than you ever can. Hey, at least I attributed.
Anyway
E2 is what happens when people stop noding polite, and start noding real.
E2 knows that the past knows itself.
E2 is all too self-aware; this is not a bad thing. Sometimes you have to be yourself, and cut loose. This isn't a place for the anon, it's a place for the bold, for the proud, and for someone with something of an ego.
I've never really understood why E2 doesn't do more stuff like day logs and dream logs. I use to read the daily evil religiously. I use to glimpse into your lives and think I could step into them just by writing myself in. I use to know Jessicapierce's measurements (13 characters). When I was fifteen, I kept that picture of her butt on my desktop. Yes, I am twenty now. Yes, I have moved on to real pornography. No. I have not learned how to spell carrer. Thank you for your concern. It's ok. All home nodes are cool. Don't miss me. I might be on IRC, just not in the chatterbox. Don't be anti-social; I know. Maybe that is why we're here. Don't be afraid to use stream of conciousness when you want a form of low level encryption. The AIM, man, the AIM. Shanoyum. Thanks for the mixtapes, guys. I still have the corn dog mix, and i've sat in the snow and waited for the aliens to come; i'm sorry I couldn't meet any of you at Cornell. If any of you tell me I could have actually gotten laid my first year of college, i'm going to take it as a jest and give my monitor the finger. I hope you're satisfied with that arrangement.
The below is included for plot continuity
The concerns we have and hold are often different from what concerns ourselves.
A fond congratulations and thanks to Segnbora-T, the first winner of a Shanoyu "Wow-Nice!" History award for her excellent writeup, Slave housing in the American South
The people made the Constitution and the people can unmake it. It is the creature of their own will, and lives only by their will. But this supreme and irresistible power to make or to unmake resides only in the whole body of the people. - John Marshall
I Am who I am and if that is not enough i'm sorry but I do not have the ability to care.
Shanoyu@mindspring.com (But good luck trying to get me to read email.)
My new mentor is Metacognizant, wish him her well for I am a difficult reclamation project. (my first problem is making
assumptions.)
You are currently looking at node 1101.
I got I'm getting a mixtape! woo!
Don't feel bad about hating my guts. Hate is a normal human emotion. Sometimes before we can love someone, we have to hate them. (The one who hates you perfectly loves you.) Before we can try to learn and understand that which will make us love someone, we have to encounter something within that person that seems so awful and wrong which makes us inspect that person. Understanding is the key to love, and sometimes hate is the key to understanding. I don't mind if you hate me, as long as you know why.
If you'd like to be added to the list of 'HATERS', send me a /msg!
Current Hatah's:
Infinite Burn
Starke7764 - "I'd like to be added to your list of "hatahs", because i've always hated your stupid homenode picture."
ignu - asked to be added because he hates everything.
But did you know that I am a Pioneer?
Things I would like to eventually do:
Perfect my zen mastery of stoicism.
Get my own Paycheck at least once
Help build the worlds most horrifingly arrogant symbol of Capitalism
Learn to be at peace with myself
Get into Yale, or, barring that, Princeton, Cornell, or the University of Chicago
I failed the above miserably, so now I go to the University of Georgia, where I am learning to half ass my way through life.
Find True Love
I gave up on the above because the conception of love is really a reciprocation of needs and desires between two people that I no longer have any interest in.
Save the world at least twice (as long as it needs doing.)
I gave up on that one because you punks are on your own.
Figure out what I plan to do with my life
My special little metanode project is A collection of Press Releases from the Libertarian Party, none of them
autonoded, the metanode is titled NEWS FROM THE LIBERTARIAN PARTY, but you can call it Cindy. One day
i'll work on it again.
[ ] jasonm says i am subverting the nodes that say shanoyu in the title by softlinking them to the blue hair
node. oh and i just found out that you're a guy? =)
My Borg Counter is 9
You may be looking for some interesting links to elsewhere here.
Well here you go!
Various "Shanisms"
- The monsters of the past will be long forgotten by the time the general populace is ever forgiven
- Retirement is an observation, not a declaration
- Real men play RPGs without dice
Here are some quotes which I like, some of which get me through the day.
<e> if god hates you someone else will answer your prayers to spite him :P
<Kensey> Infinite_Burn: go see your local butcher. they may have testicles.
<e> Islam will save america from itself
Grustlin:: It's 6am. Do you know where your beer is?
<Lews> jarnail talked about med for 2 hours straight before i destracted him with drugs
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