I'm in the same position, I'm a 19 year old female and have never dated a guy or had a *real* kiss. What I mean by that is, my lips have touched a boy's lips on a few occasions, but they weren't real kisses, not the "Oh my goodness I love you so much, thanks for being near me" kisses you see other couples enjoying.

When you start thinking about it, you get the this horrible sinking feeling. To think you're undesirable, that there may be no one who considers you worth dating...that can make for some pretty low days. I get tired of hearing "be patient" or "why don't you ask someone out." How can anyone expect a person who has never been asked out themself, therefor never been reassured of their worth and attractiveness in that area, to subject themselves to possible rejection? The thought of asking someone almost sickens me because of the chance of being turned down, which I don't think I would be able to handle on top of everything else.

Like DarkStrider, I have many close guy friends, I confide in them much more than any female, but that's the only type of relationship I've had with a guy. My junior year I finally had enough guts to ask the guy of my dreams to go with me to the prom(he stills holds that spot), but my senior year I decided I didn't want to have to ask someone again, and ended up going alone with a group of friends. Not that prom was bad last year, I had a great time, but you still have that idea in the back of your head that *maybe* you weren't worth asking.

While I'm not Gwyneth Paltrow, I'm also not Mimi (from Drew Carey). And I know I've got a lot of personality. I just want to know what it is that doesn't turn guys on to me, and mostly, I just want to be liked, and eventually loved. I know deep down that someday it's going to happen to me, and it'll make all this waiting worthwhile. But in the mean time, the waiting just plain sucks. Sometimes people who haven't had to wait don't understand, and their comments on the subject can be painfully harsh. I guess I'm just looking for someone to understand along the way, and to just listen and let me vent, while I plod along and wait for "the one."