The sisters, husbands, parents, and Chris and I are in Maryland for
Thanksgiving.
(should be New Hope) We all stay over at Aunt Susan's house
(should be Schenectady), and dinner is to be at a
restaurant. We have to cross a bridged
moat to get to the van, but Mom stays behind because she wasn't explicitly
invited. All the foliage is late-summer-green but it's chilly, windy, big old oaks violently waving branches. I wasn't formally invited either, but everybody acts normal when Chris and I pack into the van. I sit next to Susan and flop around in the seatbelt
web; Chris is alone in the rearmost bench seat. There is an undertone that Mom really doesn't belong anyway because the
agenda is to talk about her recovery.
Chris tells how her sister's "special" school is weird: the student body spends most of the day in the auditorium, the principal mandating spankings for each student in turn if they can't answer a trivia question. I drive us to pick up Jess & Mike, and school hasn't let out for the day yet. I have to see this, I think, and wander in past the gym teachers and crowds of students who are "finished". At my age I obviously don't pass for a high-school student and in my grunge slops I couldn't be a teacher either. Inside, it's a game show atmosphere. The principal is Mr. Palydowycz or Tony Robbins, and the spanking is a token swat on the jeans-armored butt. More students are loitering around the bathrooms, and I briefly consider scoring a bag of weed. (There are so many ways that's incongruous with real life, I should have gone lucid then.) I find Jess & Mike and now Chris is Mom. She calls to me, but a short gym teacher stops me as I try to make my exit. (I can still picture his face, synthesis of my Doubleday SM and my own high-school PE teachers.) I laugh in his face and start shoving him. I'm not a student, I'm saying, but what are you going to do about it? I pop him in the jaw a few times, but in dreams there is no impact and he barely flinches, he's more bewildered and cautious than threatened, I can't get him out of my way. (Symbolism: I nearly failed one year, refusing to dress for P.E.)
Consciousness dawned with a foot cramp, and I roared, gnawed the covers, and accidentally kicked the cat as I struggled free. Sorry, Fuzzbutt.